Girls

So, I was thinking and i can quite convincingly say that the majority of problems i have had since the age of 14 have been as a result of girls.

of course i'm writing this now, because again i have girl problems and to emphasize the point, a girl was of course the reason behind my previous outdated post.

so, i'm all confused right. they like you, they don't, they could, they shouldn't, you should, you shouldn't, you did, they did. i mean fuck. it's all fucking useless shit in the end.

a brief history of my fucking failings.

when i was 14, i was considered highly intelligent, getting A's for most of my subjects, they would push me into those smart kids classes where they teach you advanced math and all that shit. then girls, happened. fuck i wanted a girl so bad that me being smart just fell to the side and me becoming a fucking waste of time is what happened.

even when i was 17, i had a girlfriend, but i still went to an all boys school, which meant i did pretty well at school. i good a good O.P, i could study, concentrate at school and all that shit. then i went to uni and fuck, i was a fucking waste. i just couldn't handle being in a class with girls, everything became harder and after the first year my GPA had dropped to i think 2. basically that meant i was plain fucking stupid.

when my girlfriend dumped me i was 19 and i was pretty shattered. in the end, of course it was the right thing and i'm glad she did, but since, i have only once had to break up with a girlfriend. and this is the fucked thing, that wasn't even my worst relationship. i was just a cunt and she didn't deserve that, and admittedly i am a shitty boyfriend. and in a not so round about way i get my dues and when i get what i deserve i just get my balls beaten in.

at the moment i have a newly appointed ex girlfriend. we dated and she was pretty special, but i left the country and of course we broke up. thing is, i think i've had like 4 girlfriends in 3 years, all of which we didn't break up. either i left the country or she did. like it was always something partially forced. the last girl i Even knew i was leaving and we still dated. of course now that i've left, it's hard. it's fucked. truth is i like it when i know i'm leaving or i know it will end, but now i'm starting to thing maybe there is something wrong with me.

girls, fucking girls. i don't understand them and they don't understand me. i dont' understand what they do to me to get me all fucking loserish and a bit mental. but they do. i'd like to think i don't really worry much. but the one thing that fucking spits me out is girls. always girls. fuck even this stupid post doesn't make much sense.

lets just leave it and say, if it wasn't for girls. this would have actually made sense